After the love has gone

Tomorrow I am leaving for Chiang Mai to attend a regional meeting on sexuality. There'll be quite a few Filipinos in this meeting and I don't know most of them. And two days are not enough to get to know them so… After that I am jetting off to Beijing to work on my first consultancy outside Cambodia and the Philippines. I am very excited to do this because if I do this well, it could start my new career in China. And I've always wanted to see the Forbidden City and the Great Wall also.

However, I am leaving Phnom Penh with a heavy heart. Professionally, there's a project that's long been delayed that will be delayed further because I am leaving. I had wanted to finish it before this trip (which had been scheduled since last month) and this consultancy (which was confirmed only 2 weeks ago). I hope Tony does not get tired of hiring me.

On personal matters, Kaloy and I haven't been speaking with each other since Wednesday. I just got so irritated by his cavalier attitude towards me. On Tuesday we shopped for groceries and when it was time to pay at the cashier, he went out of the store to smoke, leaving me to sort out the goods at the counter and with no one to help me carry the bags out. Good thing the driver was alert. And when we got on our ride, he had the nerve to tel me that he intended to walk home and leave me with all the groceries. I told him if he did that, he'd find his cans of beer scattered on the sidewalk, like a trail, to our front door.

Then that night, when I told him to wake up early so we can go to the market together, he refused to go with me. I told him if he didn't go with me, i will not speak to him again till next year. So there. And I don't intend to be the first one to talk to him, even if it means leaving him without anything (fresh food or money).

I was not asking him to help me with my personal stuff. Shopping for food, which we both eat, should be a shared task. That's what makes me mad. He has exerted great effort not to be regarded as a guest in my house but as a flatmate but when it came to doing shared tasks, he balked. It's not as if he was busy working; he was just having his daily social drinks with himself. 

Anyway, as I promised myself, I wouldn't let this (him) affect me negatively. I'll focus on my trips instead.